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If I were to describe myself, that I would be... An unfinished symphony. Yes, I love music, but this blog is  not about music and it's technicalities. This will be about that symphony being written, edited and perfected for that grand orchestra in eternity.  It is a great honor to introduce you to my Maestro: JESUS Pardon me for I am an amateur blogger. Nevertheless, I pray that this blog would draw you closer to the great Author and Composer of life and LIFE Himself, as this will talk about my walk with Jesus as a mom who started young, a wife who loves and is loved by God's grace, a prodigal daughter who is given much grace and a human who continues to  live on like an unfinished symphony until Jesus completes His song in me in eternity.

Saturday 2 February 2013

Beauty and the Beast (In Us)

There is a fine line between being secure knowing that you are fearfully and wonderfully made, created in the image of God, and being overly confident because many say you are beautiful, pleasant to the eyes.  I guess I would say, it's not confidence that is exuded, but pride in the heart.

Ladies, do not see or look at yourself from the eyes of men. Their praise should not be your basis of beautiful.  The beauty you have should always come from within. No matter what the society dictates : "less is more (less cloth, more skin)" "if you got it, flaunt it", "this is the latest trend you should have" , "popularity is beauty" and so on- Set your heart or perspective of beauty from above. Because when everything fails, when your physicality fades, what is left is what matters.


I have witnessed women who fall into deep sorrows when their beauty fades. They're depressed because they don't look like this supermodel, they feel bad because they want to lose more weight even if it means being below the recommended weight for their structure, they feel terrible when no one upholds them or praises them even after having a total make-over.  Not that I'm saying don't take care of yourselves or be lanky and stay at home and just wear those oversized shirts you have with uncoordinated shorts or skirts. No! It is not that.  What i am saying is, do not mistake beauty for what the eyes see or wants to see.  

Real beauty radiates from within. 

I recall a patient who was outran by her cancer because she let it outrun her. She let the cancer grow in her, not just physically but wholly as a person. She had cervical cancer which as metastasized in her body, she had let to spread out to her soul as well. She has mistaken her beauty for what was fleeting, for what her eyes see. She focused on what is actually temporal instead of what should have been eternal. This lady grew more depressed every time she looks into the mirror when she could have looked into her soul and glorified it instead. 

But I also know of ladies who fought the cancer in their lives. Even with battles of physical deterioration, they fought a good fight for beauty. Not just with what the eyes see, but that which leaves prints and legacy. They chose to believe that beauty comes from within, and they walked what they talked. They chose to radiate from within. They glorified what was inside and let it reflect in what is seen. 

The beauty that is selfless, the beauty that radiates even without any makeup on, beauty that is glorious even with hair that comes off -when they say it is the woman's crowning glory. Beauty that is generous -lending always a hand to a friend or maybe a stranger, beauty that speaks only good and noble things of their neighbor, beauty that stands in dignity refusing to take what is less than the best -refusing which destroys their integrity.

Ladies, do not mistake beauty for having a handsome partner worship you all day. Don't make yourself an idol to the people around you. Because the face that you have is just a little part of the beauty of God, the real Source of beauty. And the beauty  that you have should draw eyes to the Creator not to what you wear or what trend you have,not even to your beautiful face (which is, excuse us, was just lent to us). For what will you do, if you lose it all? What will you do when you lose the physical beauty you think you have?  Do not bring shame to the Creator by marring what He has created.

Ladies, do not take what is not yours. Because what you have and will have is always given you at the right time. Do not mistake beauty for rushing into relationships, jumping from one to another, thinking that the more guys "you have", the more beautiful you are. Do not grief your lifetime or future husband by leaving him with what is left from your previous relationships.  Do not take away from him the joy of knowing that you wholly belong to him. Wait for your turn. Wait for your time.

So, what is beauty to you? What dictates your beauty? How long will it last?


"Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. Reward her for all she has done. Let her deeds publicly declare her praise.". 

Proverbs 31: 30 - 31 (NLT)
      

Saturday 20 October 2012

You

It's Your hand that I want to hold
And Your arms to wrap me when I'm cold
It's Your love that fills me

It's Your voice that sings me to sleep
It's Your songs that soothes me
It's just Your love that fills me, fills me deep

~Carole 8/02/2009

I just found this small lose note in between the pages of my Bible with the short poem I wrote a few years back.  I remember I was at work that time, and was just so overwhelmed with His love that I cannot contain it.  And the feeling remains the same, I know deep in my heart that no one else can fill me like the quenching love of Jesus. 

Saturday 21 July 2012

A Man's Bathroom

It was about time for our bathroom to be cleaned. Molds growing, stinky toilet bowl, yellowish tiles. Our bathroom calls to be cleaned, sanitized, disinfected.

So I go and dissolve the powdered cleaner, mix it with the disinfectant, then splashed them on every square inch of the bathroom. Brush here, brush there, rinse here, rinse there.

They say, if you really want to know how clean a house is, go for the toilet. Then you'll see that the owner really does keep his house clean.

I want to add on that. The toilet, the bathroom, the comfort room -whatever you want to call it- I want to say is the heart of the house. Because here is where one is liberated, cleansed off, released of all his/her, to put it nicely, well, waste matter.  Here is where you realize how much  good/bad food your body has consumed.

Our heart at the same time stores all the good and bad thing life brings us. We either feed our hearts with pure, noble, eternal things, or temporal, lustful, evil ones .

Mark 7:20-23 NKJV

"And He said, “What comes out of a man, that defiles a man.   For from within, out of the heart of men,  proceed evil thoughts,  adulteries,  fornications, murders,   thefts,  covetousness, wickedness,  deceit,  lewdness, an evil eye,  blasphemy,  pride, foolishness.   All these evil things come from within and defile a man.”

And so our hearts need cleaning too. It needs the sprinkling and washing of the Cleaner and Disinfectant. Let me share with you the only brand that can make our heart-bathroom clean as new: the LORD JESUS CHRIST

We need someone who is ABLE to do the cleaning for us. As the bathroom needs someone who is WILLING and ABLE to clean it -I haven't heard of any self-cleaning bathroom/toilet so far-, our hearts need that Someone who can do the same for us.

Luke 5:12-13 NKJV

"And it happened when He was in a certain city, that behold, a man who was full of leprosy saw Jesus; and he fell on  his  face and implored Him, saying, “Lord, if You are willing, You can make me clean.” Then He put out  His  hand and touched him, saying,  “I am willing; be cleansed.”  Immediately the leprosy left him. "

I find my life stinky. Messy. Soiled. And most of the time, the dirtiness of me accumulates especially when I don't tap on that Someone who can do the cleaning for me.  A lot of times I tend to neglect my heart's need to be cleansed of those stains of thoughts, molds of pride, smell of covetousness. I badly need a clean.

I'm glad my Cleaner is faithful  and reliable.

1 John 1:9 NKJV

"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us  our  sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

Isaiah 1:18-19 NKJV

“Come now, and let us reason together,” Says the Lord, “Though your sins are like scarlet, They shall be as white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, They shall be as wool. If you are willing and obedient, You shall eat the good of the land; "

How about you? When did you last have a clean? ;)

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Monday 14 May 2012

Storms

You know how it is when you wake up and find yourself being bombarded with life's realities and miseries? 


Ask me about it, I know how it is.


I wake up and everything seemed like dark clouds of worries, lightnings of fear and roaring thunders of loneliness. I felt like I need to run, but to which direction I even fear. So with all my remaining strength I try to face the forming storm, alone.  Without any raincoats, umbrellas, rain boots, I stand and walk down the dark road, and hear shouts around me "you will never make it! you are alone!". With this taunting and haunting of a forming storm, deafening my heart and soul's ears, there is yet Someone holding me, calming me and pulling me close to His heart, telling me, "Be still, I am for you. Here's my umbrella, take it and hold my hand. Put on this raincoat, you may get wet but I don't want you to be drenched. Here are the boots, the water may get deep, but we will walk through it. We will go through this together. We will walk down the road until you reach your destiny. This storm shall come to pass."


Storms in our lives are inevitable. Clouds form, strong winds stir, thunders roar, lightning strikes... But in these storms, we can take refuge. In these storms, there is that Someone who wants to hold us close to His heart and let us know, "my Child, I have been through this same storm, even worse than this..i know how it is and you don't have to go through this alone. This storm, not even this storm can separate you from my love."


Romans 8:35-39 NKJV


Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?  Shall  tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written:  For Your sake we are killed all day long;  We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. "


When we see storms coming our way, we need not panic. The storm may taunt you, but we don't have to let it drench us. Everything is a choice, we may choose to fear, or we may choose to trust He who has been through it and remain in His love.


Psalm 112:7 NKJV


"He will not be afraid of evil tidings; His heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. "


Find refuge in God's presence, find strength in His word .


Psalm 23:3-4 NKJV


"He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His names sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You  are  with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "


He knows what we are going through, and He is right there with us as we walk through these valleys, these storms.


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Friday 4 May 2012

Faith of the Four Friends



When I was at the lowest point of my life, almost losing  my daughter to a disease we never thought she had, I also almost  lost all hope and faith if not for my faithful friends.  Faithful not just to me, but to the Almighty Living God. They pushed me and brought me back to the feet of Jesus because they know it was only Him who could bring me up to my feet again. They knew who could help me, they knew their

words and encouragement would be but temporary "help", they knew who I really needed at that time.


I was paralyzed then,   paralyzed by fear, helplessness, doubt. Confused, fearing my cries would not be heard, fearing this paralysis would be of me until the end, These friends of mine made every effort to

bring me back, bring me back to the feet of my Creator, whom they know can reverse everything, whom they know has a promise in store for me, my kids, my husband, my whole family.

   

      Just like the story of the four friends who made every effort to bring their paralyzed friend to the feet of Jesus by climbing up the roof (since the house where Jesus was was  full already) and cutting a hole just so they can lower him down, my friends did the same. They climbed the roof for me and made a hole for me to be lowered down exactly where Jesus was. They did not mind what others would say about what they did, they did not mind what others would say about what they believed in, they did not mind about what others would say about their faith. And because of their faith, I was forgiven  for my lack of faith and healed of my paralysis. Because of their faith, many, not just me, were amazed. 

   

      And i am grateful. I am grateful for these friends whom I have who helped me. In prayers and in deeds. In their walk and their talk, I am truly blessed. 

   

written: 27 April 2012 0930


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An Unfinished Symphony

A lot of times when people ask me how I got to know Christ, I pause for a while and think... And ask myself too " yeah, how did I become a Christian?"


You see, I grew up in a Christian family. I have a papa as a pastor and a grandpa as a pastor too. Basically, I knew Christ "from the beginning". Just plain knowledge. I know the word faith, I know the word salvation, I know the word cross, I know the word sin. I know. But was not a believer in my heart.


I religiously attended sunday school and church camps. I memorized the scripture. I joined various ministries. Even led Bible studies and all that! I boasted of myself. I boasted of the ministries I handled. I boasted of what I can do. I boasted of my good works and efforts.


Maybe just like Paul, I was one of those Pharisees who thought they knew the way, but were actually stumbling on it.


"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith -and this not from yourselves, it is a gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast." Ephesians 2:8-9


I knew them in my mind, but I was stumbling because of immoralities. Because of an unbelieving heart. Because although I know that God is loving and forgiving, I used it as an excuse not to think that He too is Holy and Just.


"But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do. For it is written: 'Be holy for I am holy.' " 2 Peter 1:15-16


I thought then I could earn His approval. I thought then that my words and actions on Sundays would compensate for the sins I commit the rest of the week. I worked my salvation out on my own with all effort only to find myself empty, lacking, and still sinful.


I used to be that woman who would say "Lord, Lord" but never really obeyed. I would just go on with my sinful life. Mine was not a godly sorrow which led to repentance. Mine was a worldly sorrow, a vicious cycle, a miserable life seeking fulfillment in worldly things (which I thought would do)  which actually could have ended my life.


"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 6:23


"Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death." 2 Corinthians 7:10


So how did I become a Christian? I remember how a friend shared to me in a very simple- yet- full- of-impact-illustration of what grace meant. I knew what grace is, yes, an undeserved  gift, but what it really IS, I can not accept when all I really needed was to accept it just as it is. I did not accept before, because I was too proud. I did not accept the undeserved gift, because I thought then that I have to earn it (you know how it is as a kid that you know you have to do good in school because you will get a reward?). I did not accept that GRACE, because I believed in the lie that I really do not deserve it. It wasn't really about me. Christianity is never about the self. It is about my relationship with Jesus Christ.  


My friend shared it to me  this way: "it is like meeting a good old friend whom you haven't seen for a long time and wanted to give you a gift . Your friend brought you to a very nice place and upon bidding goodbye handed you a key for a Mercedes Benz which He wants you to take and drive home. Because you haven't seen each other for a long time, you refused the gift and thought it as a joke. And believing and muttering to yourself  that it was just a big joke, you took the bus home laughing and thinking what a crazy joke that was,  leaving your friend hurt for your rejection. After a few days, you find out that one of your common friends got  exactly the same car. You asked your common friend where he got it from, and simply told you 'Oh, this was the same car He wanted to give you'..."


That is grace my friend. That was what I learned and finally accepted. I thought to myself, "how long have I been rejecting that gift I know I don't deserve but He wants to give me? How long have I been hurting Him for trying to take the bus all the time when He wants me to take the luxury car and drive with Him?"


Grace is God's love for me. Grace is God's love for you. I do not deserve His love, but He loves me anyway. I do not deserve to be forgiven, but He gave up His Son to blot out my sins. 


"For God so LOVED the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him, will not perish, but will have everlasting life" John 3:16


And by His grace I am driving on with Jesus on the wheel.  By His grace I am living on as a new creation. And yes, the song we are playing on the background is His song for me, still an unfinished symphony until we reach our destination in eternity.


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